Let me render my heart this morning…
Today I started my day journaling. For me, this is the only way I can make sense of the million thoughts that circle in my head all day long. What stood out this morning is:
The creative mind is like herding cats.
I’m a cat in the cat/cat herder philosophy. Back up: I should explain the philosophy that came about on a trip to NOLA. My husband is a cat and was frustrated by attempting to keep a group of cats together. In total annoyance he yelled, “Y’all I feel like I’m herding cats!” The cats busted out laughing. We spent years coming up with truths about this philosophy. If you are a cat, you can never be a cat herder… you just don’t care that much. If you are a cat herder, you can never be a true cat… because you just can’t trust the cats to be in charge.
Back to my morning. I found myself anxious about all the ideas that I have and how to achieve them. Fear crept in, as it always does. This creative life is FULL of insecurities. Then it hit me… BAM! Insecurities don’t have a chance when you have a tribe!
I stopped what I was doing and immediately messaged my two BFFs, Michele Savoldi and Kelly Blanton. I wanted to thank them for being my cheerleaders and let them know how they keep me inspired. Thank GOD we met 8 years ago! The love of family, a great help mate and a tribe is the wonderful foundation that God has blessed me with.
I felt this truth bubbling up and the need to write about it, hoping it might touch one of you… dear kindred spirits.
So… I sat down at my desk to punch it out before the idea had time to fly the coop.
Before I could get my Internet to come up I noticed my trash needed to be taken to the road. The cat in me was off…
I took the trash to the road. Let Jack out and checked his food situation. Meandered into my garden. Dang, the carrots aren’t ready YET. Took a few pics. Realized how good the garden is to my wellness. Decided to share it in a Ripl (a great app by the way). It had been updated, so I needed to sync with Instagram again. Forgot my password. UUGH. Finally got it uploaded and posted correctly to all my social media platforms. Sit back down to type. I see a color test to take to determine my personality. I am 40% blue (TRUE) and 40% red (TRUE). GREAT! I hate that I am that personality. Watch a video on Yellows. I wish I could be more like them.
I’m back to the blog with even more evidence that I am a cat. MEOW! Let’s herd me in.
These tendencies of mine can be downright maddening. I also tend to be a little hard on myself. I’m learning to like (because love is too strong of a word) who God created me to be. One of my Mom’s favorite sayings is, “Go with the flow and you’re sure to grow.”
This reminds me of a TEDtalk I watched a long time ago. (oops just got sucked into FB briefly while searching for this video). Elizabeth Gilbert gave an awesome TEDtalk “Your elusive creative genius.” She is the one who influenced my decision to sell my car and travel to Costa Rica to spend a month at a language school to find myself. Didn’t find myself, nor learn Spanish… but that’s another story. Here’s a GREAT quote around the 2min marker, “What I have been thinking about lately is WHY. Is it rational, is it logical, that anybody should be expected to be afraid of the work they feel that they have been put on this earth to do? And what is it specifically about creative ventures that seems to make us really nervous about each others mental health in a way that other careers don’t do?” I want to personally thank Elizabeth Gilbert for giving me permission to speak to my creative thoughts. For example, “Hey creative idea, I’m a cat… please stay with me until I finally sit down to work on it with my full attention.” I’m busy going with the flow.
So, I hope this speaks to one of you precious creative souls. Believe it or not, it’s only 9:52 in the morning. I have a WHOLE day to be a CAT. I’ll choose to show up for my job and keep plugging away at my creative ideas. Despite the fact that I will get sidetracked by paths that lead to unexpected places. I’m a stubborn CAT! “¡Olé!”
Please let me know I’m not alone… share in the comments or comment on a social platform. I’d love to hear from YOUR creative stores! Beyond my two BFFs, I know there is a massive TRIBE of us!
And the birds fluttered around her writing “YES” in the sky.